I know that the spirit wont be as strong as he is now but that doesn't worry me, because I have finally found my testimony. One of my converts gave me and my companions wedding rings and she told us that she may never get the chance to be sealed in the temple with her husband but that she wanted us to keep in mind our eternal goals to go to the temple. If you look in my closet there should be a white hanger there with a booklet I revived in young women's and have kept for a long time. and it stands there to remind me that a temple dress will someday be hung there.
I have an immovable testimony that this gospel is true and that there is no other way to inherit the kingdom of God without the blessings of this gospel. Right now I am listening to the Mormon tabernacle choir and as I was listening a small message came on that said "pray more worry less" I love that because one of the apostles said that we should "doubt our doubts before we doubt our faith" there are so many people here that we have taught that have felt the changes that come from the gospel of Jesus Christ but doubt so much because they have fear to change. I know that change is necessary to become more like God and that when we put our complete trust in Him the small things don't matter anymore because we know he is all powerful and all knowing. And that His plan is perfect we just have to accept it and do what he tells us to do.
This last week with my companion we woke up a little late and felt so bad for it. As missionaries we have a strict schedule to wake up before 6:30 and so when we woke up a couple minutes later the guilt took over us both and we decided we needed a change in us both so we set goals to be more obedient, and its hard to be exactly obedient because Satan is against us in every step but together we have learned how to give our all to God and do everything in our power to be exactly obedient to the mission rules. Sometimes its like this in our lives we know what we aren't doing but sometimes we have pride and don't want to see the changes necessary but when we humble ourselves and really but REALLY apply the atonement of Christ its easier to accept His will and find a change of heart and even though its hard at times I can testify that we are happier and our lives are more enjoyable!
Yesterday in Sacrament meeting I was listening to the sacrament prayers and thinking what it meant to take His name upon us and always remember Him. I came to the conclusion that it as members of His church we literally are His representatives in all we do, say, and think we are representing him. And I think if we remembered that every moment of every day we wouldn't do half the things we do now. Sometimes its frustrating to be on a mission because you have to live the sadness of the agency of others when they decide to choose the worldly things over God, but if there is one thing I do know its that when someone does change their lives to follow Christ its one of the most rewarding feelings and things to witness. And to be honest I love being a missionary, its by far my favorite and most rewarding time I have experienced in my life and I know when I get home the same feeling will only continue and grow because its where I will be called to next, and there is a new purpose awaiting me.
I love the quote you shared about the tree of life and its interesting because the other day I was reading about Lehi's dream and contemplating how it is we obtain this and at what part of the rod I am at? Am I just starting? Have I passed through the mist? or am I on the other end getting ready to partake in the fruit?.... Who knows right all I know is that no matter where I am at in the rod that I am happy because I am still enduring to be like my Savior and I am following the gospel. I love you guys so much and I'm so grateful to have a family so amazing like you guys.
Believe, Obey, Endure, Love
With all my love
Hermana Makayla Jammet